Yesterday my family came back from a trip, and I was supposed to prepare the house for that. But I managed only a few things. Not everything I had wanted. And yes I think I should have. I felt so guilty when they came and everything wasn't ready. I feel like I let everybody down, didn't do my part.
Thought I'd get to it today. But got anxious again. When I think about things to get rid of I get nervous about my future, because I have no idea where I'm going. For example, books I used when I was teaching. Do I need them? Not now, I'm starting something different. But will I need them again? Will I get back to teaching if this doesn't work out? I have no idea... So I'm left with all these books, as a reminder that I have no idea what I'll be doing in the future.
Thought I'd get to it today. But got anxious again. When I think about things to get rid of I get nervous about my future, because I have no idea where I'm going. For example, books I used when I was teaching. Do I need them? Not now, I'm starting something different. But will I need them again? Will I get back to teaching if this doesn't work out? I have no idea... So I'm left with all these books, as a reminder that I have no idea what I'll be doing in the future.
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